Wednesday, 19 March 2014

The Future..

I'm always thinking about what the future will bring for me and my family. There are a few things i would like to do in the future but sometimes you can't plan things as it isn't always that straight forward. We can dream right??!

I currently work for Matalan- I started working there just before i fell pregnant, i worked in a salon too. I liked to keep busy so working in a salon in the day and going to work in retail in the evening was perfect for me. I hate being sat around. At the time i fell pregnant, i was also working at Next- I was a busy bee!! As much as i enjoy working in retail its not something i want to do forever. In an ideal world, i would love to be a midwife. I loved giving birth and helping other mummies bring there gorgeous babies into the world would be so amazing. I'm not sure how demanding it would be though and the thought of working alot has put me off. I have my own baby to think about and i wouldn't want to work so much that i wouldn't see him.
 I am a qualified hairdresser and i did enjoy it. I fell out of love with it before i left but i think if i managed to get back into it- I could love it again. I always said after Alfie i would probably go mobile hairdressing but this idea seems to have gone to the back of my head as i've lost my confidence in talking to people and we all know we need a good chat with our hairdresser! I'm still undecided what to do about my working life but time will tell.

I love being a mummy to Alfie and would love to give him a brother or sister. Motherhood is the most amazing thing. I would love lots of children but two would be perfect, i don't want Alfie to be alone. I would love to fall pregnant now but i don't think that will happen and ideally i would love alfie to be more independant. I wouldn't be able to push a massive double buggy around so i would like to wait until hes out of a pushchair. Maybe in the next 6months i will start talking to my boyfriend about another and see what he says.

I would love a home that i could call my own, i could do it up how i want and have it exactly like i imagine. We would need to save up some money and i would need to work more than i do currently but i would love a 3bed house in a little cul-de-sac, with a pretty garden for summer parties and lots of play space for Alfie!

Me and Zach are not engaged and don't plan to be yet. I would love to be Mrs Martin but i just don't see that happening yet, the time would need to be right and i don't want to get engaged for the sake of it. I would like it to have a meaning and lead to marriage!

I want to be more confident and content with who i am, i've always had issues with confidence and i would like to knock it on the head as soon as i can. I have a gorgeous son that i created so i should be proud of myself but I'm finding it hard to snap out of this place I'm in.


Whatever happens, whether the dreams come true or not. I just want Alfie to be happy. I want to create lots of happy times for him and lots of memories that i can cherish. He's the most important person in my life and aslong as he keeps smiling then I know everything will be ok with him by my side. 


  1. Lovely post! Dreams can come true, I waited a long time for mine but they worked out in the end.
    Here's hoping yours do too! x

  2. I'm currently engaged, saving for a mortgage and pregnant with number 2 so things are heading in the right direction for us.. finding the right house is proving harder than it would seem though. Things will start to fall into place but there's no rush.. enjoy your little boy in the meantime :) confidence wise I was the school I held back and wasn't my true self but after going back into retail work after having Rio I've found I'm suddenly more me!! Nice post x

  3. Brilliant post Emma - I love that you put Alfie before anything else. He's a lucky boy xx