Saturday, 8 November 2014

The end is in sight.. PND

The end of my PND is in sight, the light isn't too far down the tunnel -however its not quite in arms reach.
I've said from the start that I didn't want to be haunted by my mental illness so I'm not letting it happen. I've been on my tablets for seven months and I decided that it was time to get on with my life so I've spoke to my doctor and she agreed that lowing my dose of medication is the next step I should be taking towards my new state of mental health.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying its going to be an easy ride but I'm so ready for this- I'm focused- I'm prepared and I'm strong.
It's now day five of my lower dose of medication, I've gone from taking a tablet a day to taking one every other day. Surprisingly, I feel good. I expected it to be hard but from all of the support of friends, family and my readers I know I can do this.
Zach and I have rekindled our romance and I think I've come on leaps and bounds in my recovery as I'm so happy and content again.
I am a strong person, I didn't think I was but I know for a fact I am. I've been through the hardest days of my life and I'm still here.
I have one person to thank for the focus I have right now and that's Alfie. He's my rock, he cant talk and would not of known what was happening when I was really ill but he's saved my life. Everytime I feel low, I just look at my baby and a massive smile appears out of no where. He's my rock and I owe him a lot.
Here's to be the best mum I can be to my little guy.


  1. Great post. Thanks for sharing your journey and wishing you the best on this next stage, you can do it :) xx

  2. This is gorgeous lovely and I love hearing you feel happier and getting better! I definitely think lowering your dose is the right thing, I don't take my tablets anymore and it was actually the best decision xx


  3. Such a lovely post and well done to you. I hope your recovery continues to go as well x #SundayRoundup

  4. Oh what a wonderful post and I'm so happy for you - baby steps I know but what a fabulous achievement! You should be immensely proud of yourself! #sundayroundup

  5. Lovely post. You should be so very proud of yourself. #sundayroundup

  6. Well done petal — you have a fabulously POSITIVE state of mind! Your baby boy is so lucky to have you as his mama. PND is so debilitating but with a little help from the GP and a LOT of determination from you, you'll beat it and, soon enough, will be back to your old self. Wishing you all the best xx #sundayroundup

  7. We done you have done amazing! Keep positive you have done a fab job, admitting depression is such a hard feat well done for having the courage! Thanks for joining up to the Sunday Round up xx